hmmmm...I understand the desire to want to drag it out longer, but you're doing just that...dragging it out. Will it improve? Doesn't sound like it. So you're just prolonging the inevitable and making yourself miserable at the same time. I've really learned in all this to think of myself. Without me none of this works, therefore I'm the most important one here. Sounds so selfish and took me a long time to get there, but it's true. The others need you!
Sorry, I don't mean to seem to pushy, I've just been there and then been on the other side of it, too and know how much better off everyone was after.
Good luck.