Lord give me the strength to terminate

[Spixie33]

I think I am just getting frustrated with myself and the situation. I feel like I will never do it and am just stuck

At times I almost over complain to the parents thinking I am giving them a hint and then think that they will terminate me or sabotage myself in some way so I can have them do the termination.

Then the mom comes today and is so nice and cheerful and I can just feel my heart sink because I know it is not happening any time soon. Sigh

[gcj]

I mean feel bad for the other kids, btw.