I know exactly what you mean olive and it is completely indispensible to belong to a daycare provider's only board. I belong to a couple of them and it so wonderful to be able to discuss things openly with people who understand your special daily problems. Working alone every day with the tiny little maniacs is really exhausting, but if you have serious problems with your clients, the parents, you can lose a whole lot of sleep due to stress. I hope you can work it out, whatever it is.