Just realized you mentioned in your first post about using usedottawa so going to assume you are in Ottawa. Check out CCPRN www.ccprn.com and take advantage of their start up sessions and supports. What it does is show to families that you are serious and committed and that can go a long way when you are just starting out. And it will help you to realize that we were all at this stage once upon a time and that it does get better. I am in Orleans. (Ottawa - east end)