This week has been a really stressful one and this morning I got some pretty crappy news...

The mom of the little boy I care for just informed me this morning that she is 20 weeks pregnant. Nice, eh? 20 weeks and she's just telling me now..he's been with me for a little over two months so she was pregnant when he started. I'm happy for them, and a little jealous lol but it just sucks, because it means that this little boy who has been SO MUCH work is going to be taken out of daycare in the next few months. It's probably a blessing in disguise because I was thinking of letting him go anyhow, but I wanted to do it on my terms: ei have a full daycare and then replace him.

The only other little person I have is starting in July but it's contingent on her mom finding a job. She seems to have found a daycare for safety, for when she finds a job, but that if she doesn't find one before the end of her mat leave, she'll take her out.

I'm really starting to panic. I never realized how difficult it would be to find clients! I was a nanny and I always found work immediately. I thought daycare would be the same. I am considering going back to work but the thought of leaving my son breaks my heart...not to mention the cost.

If I could find 2 more clients, I would keep going, but it seems really impossible and I'm getting really stressed. I have a great website, i update my ad daily, but i never receive any emails.

I know that the little boy leaving is months away, and the little girl is starting regardless this coming july, her mom finishes mat leave in august, so i have till then to find some more kids, but I've been looking since February, and I only have two kids an have had three interviews (the third one may start in october, but i was really weary of the mom).

I'm so frustrated and discouraged. This is something I've always planned on doing, but it's proving to be a lot more difficult than I thought. If I didn't need my income to survive, I would continue, but we can't survive solely on my husband's salary.

Thanks for listening to me vent

I'm so sad