I would do the exact same thing in your shoes. 6am is ridiculously early. My kids come at 7:30 and I honestly don't think i could do any earlier. Getting up at 7 is quite possibly the most difficult thing of life lol luckily, my son is up at that time, so it's a little easier to get up.

In order for you to be there for your kids, you need to put your family first. I've noticed you saying things like wanting to go back to work, since your kids are now in school - is this something you would consider? If you could find something during the hobe hours that your kids were in school - be there when they leave and be there when they come home, would you do it? If not, then you need to consider what you need in order for you to be happy in your business. Yes, this is a business, but like I've been saying - I do it for my son. If there is anything within my business that takes anything away from my son, I don't do it. Originally, I wanted four dcks. But I realized if I had 4, I couldn't spend as much time with my son, I wouldn't have enough patience at the end of the day. So, I took the pay cut and take only three.

Sit down, write it all down. Figure out what is best for you and your kids. If this before and after school thing is the problem, end it. Don't feel guilty. If it makes you feel better - think of it as this: you're only their babysitter. Yes, it will be difficult to say goodbye, but if you think about throwing a party when you think about them leaving, then maybe that's your answer lol