Thanks ladies. I usually know right away if something is going to work or not. I worked as a ECE full time at a centre, and a live in summer nanny. I never felt like this. I am wondering if it has to do with it being in my home and never really feeling like I get a break from it all.
Hubs told me to look at the bigger picture, if going back to work full time and still being able to stay home with our little one is an option he thinks I should go for it.
I am feeling guilty and frustrated with myself.