Your Welcome for the Vent. and You are NOT alone! Every one of us has been there a time or two or three or four or.......... You are doing what you love (staying home with your child)...keep doing it! This job is NOT easy, but oh how I could tell you all the times parents have walked in my door and made comments like "oh how good you have it!" or "I wish I could stay home all day Like you" this job is GREAT in the sense that we CAN stay home every day (but some days it feels like a prison!) I would trade this for the world....but, there have been MANY days I watch a Mom go off to work dressed all fancy and smelling so good and knowing her lunch will be peaceful and at some point in the afternoon she will walk out of her office and into the day in QUIET, go to pick up a coffee in QUIET and return to work ALONE! although I would NEVER trade my life for someone elses, not only do I love this job (prison or not) but I am also being happy being me! I know I will always be ok, God provides and through ALL the ups and downs (there have been MANY over the years) I wouldnt trade a thing, because I have been here for my kids the entire time. its worth the prison, its worth the crying, its worth the creaps and their kids. (more good people than bad) but its worth it all, years ago, like you, this was my dream! I never thought I would be able to do it, and I did...hang in there, it is quite an accomplishment and you should be proud of yourself. You really have to be a tough person to keep it up and not quit even when things get so tough. Things WILL get better, I promise. I have been where you are! Go give your son a hug and thank the Good Lord for the oppertunity you have been given. There really is a very bright side!!!!!!!