sometimes when you just sit back and let life have control again, is when everything falls into place. maybe there is a reason you are not doing as great as you expected by now, just relax and go with the flow and...it might not hurt to get a second opinion from someone you can really trust, have them go over your interview style and you contracts, maybe there IS something you are missing or maybe doing to put people off a little, or it could just be..."it's not your time right now" getting started is hard. do you have kids of your own?