I promise I won't do that again. I've learned my lesson.

In regards to my husband - that's where the story becomes even longer. He is VERY supportive of me, let me explain. When I was half way through my mat leave, he took a different job (dream job for $20,000 less a year) and with that significant pay cut came more financial stress. As I've been on leave we've been able to make ends meet but with no cushion financially. So, when I say he's pressuring me, it's because he's exhausted from carrying such a financial burden. He thinks the world of me and is sure that I could handle 3 one year olds...he doesn't realize just how much stress it would be.

And as for the client I lost...part of my reason in extending so much to her is that she was leaving her husband and house for her dream job because the market is too bad to sell the house. She has no friends here and doesn't know anyone, so I was trying to help her as much as I could. My bad.