Woohoo kidlove, you really know how to give yourself a peptalk! But it's ok if you have a low phase because that just means when you start to get things under control you will be really proud of yourself. We all have down times and we need them. I was feeling horribly defeated in September and I took a week of vacation and came back feeling refreshed and with an entirely new attitude. I schedule a week off every 3 months to keep myself normal and happy. We all have to figure out how to keep ourselves at the top of our game.