This is just a vent. Feel free not to read, it's a safe place to post and I really need to just get it out!

So I was perusing kijiji at the beginning of the month and someone had an ad up in my postal code for 6 days of evening care, I figured "why not? I could use the extra cash and maybe she'll use me for after school care (regular hours)"...well we signed a contract and she's got to dcg's with me for 2 hours a day starting in November. The stretching part has been this week. I'm on day 4 of working 6:30am-8pm. I'm EXHAUSTED. My hubby helped me a lot on Monday, then got the stomach flu on Tuesday so I got to take care of him too. He was home all day Wed, in the basement recovering from the flu. Today he heads 2 hrs away to do a conference til tomorrow. I knew this was coming and today I thankfully only have kids til 7.

I had no idea how negatively this would affect my daughter. I had prepared for some backlash but it didn't really occur to me that she would be really upset not having just mommy and daddy time. Last night she was having severe separation anxiety and didn't go to sleep til 2 hours late. She is sleep trained (she did it herself) and is usually asleep within mins of being laid down at 7. It is breaking my heart. How could I be such a terrible Mommy

The girls I watch in the evenings are GREAT. They are a perfect fit for my house, they are well mannered, potty trained and have learned how to play with a baby (or babies) in the house. It's just the hours. I am never doing these hours again. I am open until 5pm and then your kids can sit on my front step! (just kidding but you get my drift)

I'd say this week has been hard on everyone as by yesterday I had a short fuse and today, even though I'm trying to push through, I'm still not in a good mood. amDCG purposely spilled her yogurt because she didn't want it...I almost flipped my lid. She's been having a rough week too - crying when her mom drops her off, and she's never done that before.

Okay I think I'm done venting. If you did read all of that, sorry. I'm a whiner. Pray for my sanity. Tomorrow I only have amDCG til 2:30 so I can get through this. Only 9 more hours. Never again.