Thanks guys. I am happy just to hear I am not alone. It is just wearing on my some days more than others and by the end of the week I am just like a walking piece of cardboard - drained.
Mom-in-alberta...I think the same thing some time about whether it would be beneficial to work outside the home and be gone 8-9 hours a day from them. On one hand I think I might come home more relaxed and stimulated but on the other hand I am worried on who I would use to watch my children, the gas money and how I would still be at the same income plus lose the time with my kids so really no further ahead.
On the positive my house would probably look cleaner since noone would use it during the day but I always feel bad that to be at the same income I would lose a few hours with my own kids after the bus comes.
It just sometimes feels like M-F I go into survival mode...prepared for the running noses to be wiped on me, the drool that will fall all over me, the diapers, the feedings and fights and crying and how to deal with it all with a smile on my face. Some days by the end of the days I want to go into solitary confinement with padded walls to keep out all noise and people who want something more from me. I feel less patient with my own kids and snap at them when they keep asking me for something or repeating themselves.
Moms are great at guilt and then feeling like they are just not good enough which I inevitably feel on those days