No energy to run the daycare, should I take energy pills :(

[gcj]

I think you're being WAY too hard on yourself! Some kids just don't work out. And that's it. Move on. Turn the page. As far as the 2 year olds, loosing interest, yawning. They're 2! Let them play. Let them find things to do on their own. You have a playroom?? Best thing they can do in a playroom is play!! You don't have to navigate every part of their day. Best gift you can give yourself AND them is allowing them the chance to learn independent play. They can do it!

If you're in this for the long haul you need to learn balance. Sure, we do activities and circle time and crafts, but if you want to make it physically and mentally, give yourself a break. Give yourself permission to let them be. My guys are right here behind me playing. I don't have to tell them what to play, what to do. We did about 15 minutes of colouring/crafts, some outside playtime and now they're on their own. I'm making sure everything is safe and fair......but besides that they're on their own. They're playing and I'm recharging. And I'm allowed. I've decided that I'm allowed.

And get outside. Make yourself do it. Even if it's long to dress them....hey, that kills part of the never-ending morning! Who cares?! And the fresh air will do you all good.

And, lastly when the day is over find time for you....and at naps actually. Do something you like. Something that brings you back to life. Get out, do it at home....whatever makes you happy.

I think we've all been there. I know I have! I had my rough time....my rough years. And I've learned one thing. Kids don't need as much as we think they do. I'm in no way a slacker. I love teaching and doing preschool stuff and crafts, but balance it all out with a lot of free play. Learning this has given me the energy to give MORE...to the dcks, to my family and to ME!

I wish you courage, strength. luck. And don't let anyone tell you you've failed. It didn't work out....period. And if you feel you've failed, don't dwell on it. Move on. Learn from it. Your life is better now. And I don't think you need an energy drink. Try some chamomile. Energy will come from being content and calm. oooh...try president choice "calm" herbal tea. It's tasty and calming!

[kidlove]

interesting little fact about neck and back trouble....when your kneck and back are out your body is "off" it goes into overdrive to handle the issue of pain and what not,causing stress..in turn...lowering your immune system. If your back is out, get it fixed soon, the longer you let it go the more wore out you can get in turn causing more stress than you already have and to top it off, it's sick season...your so much more likely to pick up an extra illness due to the stress the back and other issues are causing you. take care of yourself and get your back fixed. ps: hope you don't think I was being mean when I said you failed, hope you understand what I meant by it... in this job we tend to take our position quite serious and when families leave on bad terms we can really beat ourselves up, it's a fact we will do it, so the quicker we can just swallow the fact that this one didn't work aka "failed" the quicker we can get back up and going full force ahead rather than ,think and worry about what has already been done! take care of yourself Disney!