Skysue, I know exactly how you feel. I was very angry about things as well....maybe frustrated is a better word. I was especially frustrated that I have to work so hard to provide for my family by myself whilst my ex-beloved was prancing around living out his dream and ripping through brides (working on #5 as we speak). They're all very valid feelings you're having and vent away! My remedy was to be completely and utterly selfish. Not all the time, mind you, but sometimes.

I do, in fact, disappear to a private island once every year....well, not private, but might as well be! I load up my back pack, get all my camping gear and head to a little island off the coast of Puerto Rico for a week or so, ALONE! It's a lovely, safe and cheap trip which recharges my batteries completely. For that brief period I lay about in my hammock reading, sail to an uninhabited island whilst ogling the captain (of course), drink my morning coffee on the beach at sunrise and splash in the blue Caribbean Sea. There's nothing, and I mean NOTHING like it. I get to be me in my best form and I can swing my arms without hitting children. No one wants anything from me, aside from the odd backpacker wanting to share supplies for dinner or play some cards. It's quite lovely.....April is sooooo far away!

Find your thing that you love, that you look forward to and make it happen. For me, I take on little extra jobs on some weekends, use my GST cheques, whatever for these trips. I make them up from 'found money' if that makes any sense. We all deserve to put ourselves first now and then and we should as a point of maintaining a good emotional state. I find, with my trip, that the months leading up to it are that much more tolerable because I know it's coming. We all need something amazing to look forward to.

Chin up....find your selfish side and embrace it