What were you doing before you started doing daycare and what were your reasons for leaving that job to do daycare? Sometimes it is done to stay with our own child instead of putting them into daycare but then after another year we realize they are ready for something more social and so are we and they need to go to a daycare centre or preschool or another provider that offers things you don't and you go to what makes you happy too.

The idea of going to a provider that does what you don't want to is so that when you do spend time with your child you are doing what makes you happy still and your child is getting the best of all worlds. So if you like to sit and paint and do crafts find a provider that likes to be outside exploring nature so you and your child can spend evenings cuddling with a colouring book instead of hiking.

As far as telling your parents honesty is probably the best and giving them as large a window is nice too if you can financially swing it in the sense of when you would start a job. Can you go back to the place you were working at before or would you even want to.

When hubby's are not supportive then we are in a vicious circle because it is like we are treading on thin ice and going around in circles not pleasing anyone no matter how hard we try. If you were to ask him what he would rather you do and how he realizes it would effect your own children what does he say. Once he thinks about the ramification of it all he may begin to change his mind such as ok now he just takes off and goes to work and never has to worry about anything but if you go to work too then he will have to consider helping to get child to daycare or picking up at the end of the day and looking after them till you get home from work or taking a turn at time off work if they are sick or have a doctor's appointment. He just might realize he has it better than he thought.

Only you can decide what is best for you right now and if you want to make changes when is the best time to do it. At the same time read some of the threads where a provider has let one of their kids go and how much more they love their job with that stress gone. Maybe that is the place to start - get rid of those around you that depress you.