I wish it were fun again....

[Spixie33]

I think I have had those times too where I felt I was not doing enough and then not meeting the needs of my own family, household or the daycare because I was stretched too thin and trying to do everything.

I tend to sometimes still be going full steam at 8 pm or 9 pm without having a breather. It is exhausting.

I try to think positive thoughts and really psych myself up in the morning. Each morning I think of who will be there during the day and mentally give myself a pep talk that "you are a good provider and you are going to have a great day today no matter what." I think of all the kids and the pitfalls of each one (i.e their bad habits that drive me beserk) and then tell myself that I am not going to let it ruin my day.

Thursday last week was insane. I ended up with two kids bleeding in separate little incidents, two kids who had pee accidents and needed a change of clothes, another child who was just clumsy and kept falling and hurting themselves all day, a cat who had diarrhea and somehow managed to get it on the bathroom walls just when I was trying to change one of the 'accident' children and I was running from one scenario to the other like a chicken with her head cut off. It was a laugh or cry day but I just went hour by hour.

I try to imagine getting out of daycare life some times too but I haven't been able to think of a good alternative so I figure this is where I am supposed to be.

I also feel disappointed with myself at times though - especially if I lose my cool and then am frustrated and end up yelling at my own kids. That is a sure fire way to feel like crud on the bottom of a shoe. I read an orange rhino article online last week where you try to go a year or less without yelling at your kids. That seems interesting but probably a pipe dream in my case. lol

I have had a few days where I am spending more time outside just watching the kids play rather than planning crafts and activities and other days where I decide to do special crafts with them to just shake things up for them and myself and make our day more interesting so that none of us feel the same old blah blah day after day.


I have heard people loving the Fly Lady and her daily schedules that break down housework day by day rather than making you feel like you have to do it all at once. Best advice I got was to make sure your sinks and toilets are sparkling and your whole house appears clean.

Hopefully some spring weather will get you outside and cheer you. It is a job that is draining and demands more hours than people realize so it is no wonder we feel burned out sometimes. Then we have our own families after hours so we are doing double duty with little time off.