So sorry that you're going through this. Please know that you are not alone. This is a tough, isolating job. We all have these days. Glad you're seeking some help; it was the best thing I could have done last year. Be sure and take time for yourself during nap time; the chores can wait. And don't feel bad about lots of free play time, it is so good for kids! I've really scaled back on my crafts (sometimes I feel like those are more for the parents than the kids...I do them maybe one a week) & tend to jump in on free play for on the spot learning, rather than a structured plan.