I want to curl up into a ball and cry :(

[sunnydays]

You are not a horrible mother! I was eagerly awaiting my son starting school this past fall as well..LOL and now I am eagerly waiting for him to go back in September...LOL. I think it is very difficult for us moms because we have no back-up...it is just us with the kids alone all day and the wear us out! My kids are better when my husband is home...and I will admit to using the "just wait until your father gets home" line It can be so exhausting when they don't listen well. Today my kids were upstairs and out of the daycare for an hour or two in the morning (with relatives) and OMG it was quiet!!! I almost didn't know what to do with myself...I sort of just stood there wondering what to do for a little while as normally I don't have a moment to sit, to breath, or think. Then when they came back in the noise and activity level went up about 300% My son is very active...he is not aggressive, but needs to be doing something physical all the time...gets bored easily...and when he gets bored he bugs the other kids who are closest to his age (although they are all 3 and under). He drives me insane some days! Honestly, next summer I am putting him in summer camps for a good part of the summer because I don't think I can do this every summer.I get hard on myself too sometimes...feeling like I am not doinga good job because all the dck's follow my rules but my son is all over the place...when I feel like he should be a shining example for the other parents of how a child should behave :0 It's hard. Just try to hang in there, stay firm, try to take a break somehow in the evenings, and it will pass.