Oh I feel for you!! Losing children is the hardest part of the job, especially when you come to love them and look forward to seeing them. I lost 3 children within a month and a half and I felt like I did something wrong. Of course each parent told me that wasn't the case but like another poster said, families will do what is best for them. Thankfully my spots are all full again but I still miss my previous group. It's hard not to take it personal but I am learning that I need to get used to this...the children can't stay with me forever!!