It is stressful not knowing what's going to happen next. Me, I like to know about tomorrow yesterday! Lol. I'm down to 3 part timers and I'm finding my spots very hard to fill right now. Like Playfelt said though, things have a way of working out. Just keep telling yourself that the kids you're meant to have with you are coming and that the ones you don't snag aren't the right ones anyways! In the meantime, find some you time and enjoy it because you never know, you might be super busy again very soon and wish for a break.