I started about 1.5 years ago, and for the first 6 months I had only 2 kids and I really enjoyed it. Then things changed with H's job and I needed to take on more kids to make it work. Now I have 5 kids, plus my own 2 and things are feeling different. I feel on edge pretty much all day, with this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach. Nerves or stress I guess? I live in fear of someone hurting themselves, or of the next tantrum. Nap time is super stressful for me, I spend the whole two hours on eggshells, shushing my older kids, and watching the clock expecting anyone to wake up any time and knowing I'll have to put up with their crying until the 2 hours is up. Then the afternoon is here, and it's a race to fit in diaper changes, snacks, a bus pick up all before the parents start arriving. I feel like I can't breathe. Please tell me it gets better???