I'm so sorry for your loss, GravyTrain. Though I am by no means a regular on these forums, I thought I might be able to offer a little bit of support.

My husband and I struggled with infertility, After trying for 2 years to conceive we were able to get some medical help- I have PCOS and the doctors discovered I don't ovulate even though I have regular periods. I was given clomid to ovulate and within 3 months got pregnant with my son, born in feb 2012.

over the summer my husband and I decided to start trying again and were referred back to the same fertility clinic. They gave me clomid since it worked last time, and I concieved in the first month! we were so thrilled, but the pregnancy wasn't viable. I was so devastated. I'd been given multiple ultrasounds and we knew it was coming (saw a heartbeat at 6 weeks, then no heartbeat and no growth the following week) and the dr said we just had to wait and see. I miscarried at about 8 weeks, and the pain was intense but thankfully short lived. Within an hour it passed and it was over.

This was in september. I bled for a few days but nothing worse then a normal period for me. I had another period the beginning of november (my cycles are usually 6 weeks apart, I'm assuming due to the annovulation)

In december I started feeling weird. Not myself. It wasn't until the 23rd of dec that I looked at my calendar and realized how long it had been since I had a period. I took a test that day as I had a bunch left over from TTC in the summer.

Big fat positive.

Both my husband and I were in shock, as I didn't feel emotionally 'ready' for another, and the fact that we needed medication the previous pregnancies. We weren't even trying.

In short- it sucks. It really fucking sucks, it breaks your heart. A friend of mine said to me "You'll still get to meet that little peanut. Soul's just waiting for a better suit. (Some of 'em are picky like that.). Betcha it's a girl. Mine turned out to be Becca. And she's STILL like that."

There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Sending love, and hugs your way. Stay strong momma.