Is there any chance it's because you took on too much too fast? It took me almost 2 years before i took on the full 5 daycare kids. I started with 2 and slowly added on as the months passed. It sounds like you filled up immediately which can be really overwhelming, especially if you have your own young kids at home too. If this is the case, is there any way you can afford to cut back a bit and have less kids?