I'm sorry that you are loosing a dck. It is tough as we get so attached to them! I cried (ok bawled lol) when I lost my first ft child. He had been with me since he was 8 months old and left when he was 2 and he and my SO were very close as well. I cried for a few other dck's and did a happy dance for a few otherslol
I agree with mickyc...if you can, I would wait until after you have your own baby and get back into the swing of things. Good luck with it all!!