Big rant!

[gravy_train]

Sorry for the negativity but I need to vent and need some support! Here we go:
Issue 1: I am 11.5 weeks pregnant (woohoo!), have had brutal mornign sickness that lasts all day and into the night. I started taking diclectin about 4 weeks ago and it helps tremendously but a side effect is drowsiness so I am exhausted all.the.time.

Issue 2: My partner leaves for work at 7am and doesn't get home until 6 to 6:30pm. This means that all of the household tasks like cooking, cleaning, dishes, laundry, etc. falls mostly on me. I am exhausted and most days the only second i get to do something for myself is at the end of the day. when i finally stretch out in bed with a book i read one or two sentences and fall asleep.

Issue 3: My 2 year old son is not enjoying daycare life. He is hitting the other kids constantly and when I try to redirect his behaviour he laughs. I am a total loss about how to handle this. It wasn't an issue to this extent with my oldest son and I feel so incompetent.

Issue 4: My 3 year old DCK is recently potty trained. Has been pooping in underwear daily for the past 2 weeks. Sometimes it stays contained, sometimes not. Today there were 2 accidents before 10am - one poop and one pee. Had to mop and disinfect the floor. This kid does not stop talking all day long and is the most high energy child I have ever met. Runs instead of walks, is always humming, making sounds, singing, even during quiet time. He gets in my son's space constantly and my son inevitably responds by hitting him or pushing him away. He does not know how to pick a toy that he wants to play with and instead will follow others around and play off of them. This kid zaps my energy and I am very resentful right now. I know that it isn't the child's fault and is completely me but I can't take much more.

Issue 4: My 22 month old DCK is having BIG emotions. If I ask the child to get ready for a diaper change she starts crying, if I ask her to stop doing something she cries, if I tell her it's snack time, she cries, etc. I can't take it. Parent have told me they are considering trying to toilet train her mid-April. I don't know if I can deal with the extra stress.

Issue 5: I just did my taxes and I owe a lot more than I expected so I might have to work longer than I want.

Issue 6: We decided to make-over our kitchen in December. We are doing most of the work ourselves to save money. It has been three months and I have boxes of tools laying everywhere, no cupboards in my kitchen so my son is constantly grabbing food, dishes, etc. I am exhausted and being newly pregnant can't do as much of the work as I expected. My partner is doing his best but... I have been alone with the kids on the weekends for much of the past 6 weekends so that he ca work on the kitchen, which he doesn for a few hours (there's only so much he can do before having to wait for the next step), and then he gets to spend the time hanging out with his freinds, etc. When I have a project or something that I have to do I have to figure out how to do it with at least one child dividing my attention. I'm bitter.

Issue 7: I feel like I have no support and that if I do complain it will be met with a huge argument because he is trying. But it is so different for him - he gets ready for work, leaves for the day, comes home to dinner made, laundry washed and folded, makes himself a drink and sits down to enjoy the family - where is my time??

Issue 8: This bloody winter.

ANy words of support would be so much appreciated.
Thank you!