Big rant!

[gravy_train]

Thanks so much everyone! I met my midwife for the first time yesterday and she is so contagiously positive and awesome that I feel a million times better just talking to her. She assured me that when the time is right for me she will write me a letter recommending that I take leave from my job (so that I can get sick leave from EI before my maternity leave). So, in a financial sense that takes a lot of pressure off.
I've also decided to join my hubby on a business trip in three weeks (free hotel with swimming pool for the kids and I while he is in meetings) . I will still be with the kids but will have the luxury of hotel living (no cooking) with the fun of a swimming pool!! I am only giving my clients a few weeks notice but I'm not going to feel guilty about it at all!
I have my countdown calendar in an easily accessible spot and started my day by looking at it and crossing off yesterday :-).
Things are looking up!