I just need to vent. I can't really talk about this with friends and my family all has so much on their own plates, this feels safer and less intrusive.

I am feeling so overwhelmed at the moment and I don't know what to do. I am greatly effected during my day and I feel the kids are feeling it as I am less patient, not really enjoying my days and I am less fun.

My dad was diagnosed with Parkinson's 2 months a go. It is hitting him pretty fast and this has definitely put an "expiry date" on my parents who are my world. To top it off my 3 wk old nephew was just diagnosed with a rare type of Cystic Fibrosis that isn't normally caught on the newborn screening and my children also need to be tested as there is a possibility my kids have the disease as well and it just hasn't shown yet (they are only 4 and 2 which is normally when it emerges if not caught on newborn screening). I have already convinced myself that this is not possible as my girls appear so healthy but it is a nagging problem for me.

My family is really coming together and there have been a lot of get togethers etc which has been really nice and helping me to deal with all that is going on.

I live pretty far from my family (2 hrs) enough that we can't see them everyday. An opportunity has come up for a position near my parents for my husband which he interviews for today. If he is successful we will also need to prepare our house to sell it and move. My daughter starts kindergarten in Sept so it would be ideal for her to start in her new school but this may not be possible. A move will also mean closing up shop for me which I am fine with (only doing this to be with my kids). The perk of all this is we are selling a house in a hot Toronto market and moving to small town Ontario which means we should have enough equity to stay at home with my kids until the little one starts kindergarten and possibly have more kids.

My car is dying a slow death and we are trying to buy a new used one...this is proving hard within our budget but also time frame to car shop etc.

We may need to put our 9 yr old dog down as well. She's not doing well anymore.

My sister is pregnant and not doing well. She is off work and she is likely going to have a premature baby.

I just need something to give a little so I can breath...Just so many major life changes all happening at once and everything needs to be reacted/dealt with immediately which is just stressing me out.

I have started doing little repairs around the house to fix it up in case we need to sell but I am hanging on by a thin thread some days.

To top to off, it's my birthday and the kids are big dramatic messes...I tried to do something fun today but it was an epic failure. They have been difficult for the last little while, I think since I found out about my dad/nephew. They are feeding off my mood and I don't know how to stop it...