I mostly blame myself for not making a decision . When I'm wishy washy it always makes me unhappy !! Starting at 8 am I have had 3 siblings take turns crying over every thing . It should of been an easy day but it started with a 4 yr old crying because where she was sitting she was by a green mat , apparently green was a big problem today . I tried everything , because no one else was here I pulled out all the games , new toys anything to find a happy spot to our day . But our day was filled with crying and fighting . I , for the first time requested pick up , I pulled my dd from the playroom and waited . Mom phones and talks to kids , apparently
they had flu shots last night . Mom explains it's complex to come pick up today ( I texted while I was frustrated, I still think they shouldn't be here ) but I agree to wait . I turn the lights out and we rest . They both fall asleep , I know mom doesn't like naps , they usually don't but they so needed it today !
Why I am not happy with myself ? Because I know better ! I don't know why I'm not just giving notice . I think 2 months is ample time to come to the conclusion maybe we are not the right fit . I have given advice to term , I have termed ,why am I not making a decision ? I have frustrated myself !!