I just can't shake these feelings as of late. I have felt very overwhelmed, lost and sad. I am so not into the kids or my job or frankly anything. My family really hopes to move closer to my family but we have not been successful in finding employment in our new town. It would be hard to leave Toronto as there are so many opportunities and my husband has an obscure job which is harder to find in small towns. My husband has had 2 interviews in the town we hope to move to over the last year but he wasn't successful. I feel even worse about feeling sad about things as this just puts pressure on my husband who is trying so hard to make this monumental change for me.

I am just really feeling stuck here now and don't know what to do. Part of why we want to move is so I can stay at home with my kids, have a few more and be closer to my family. If I were to find employment there it wouldn't make sense as my husband may never find something. My dad is also sick and this has made me want the whole process sped up. I just need to get over this rut and move on but I am having a hard go of it.