Is it just me or is it always "this is the year" lol

This time last year I remember we had a thread going motivating and sharing tips on eating healthy and exercise. Then life goes on and we get busy with other things. Well I'm hoping to revive things as I am crossing fingers, toes and anything and everything else that this is my year to get my s**t together and ACTUALLY change.

This last year has been pretty rough when it comes to health. I am pre-diabetic now and at my heaviest. I need to lose at least 80-100lbs in total, so I'm just aiming for 2lbs a week. Slow and steady wins the race. I am an overeater, and in general do not take care of myself. It is a psychological issue since having constantly reinforced beliefs at my core that I am worthless. That is why I put way to much of myself into looking after others. This is a really bad thing as a caregiver by nature not just profession that rarely turns out well. I am trying my best to make changes, and some goals have been met, but it is a daily struggle.

I meal prepped this weekend for myself and my husband and the kids school lunches. It is hard work but they all helped. My son made muffins, my daughter made granola bars. My husband made two lunches and two dinners and I made the rest. It took hours!!

I have to get back to exercising which is my plan at naptime today. 20 minutes of HIIT plus I have stretches and core exercises for strengthening from my physio.

I have endo and was on hormone therapy for 13 weeks. This particular drug is the most successful medication out there for managing this disease but at the 11 week mark, I kind of lost my mind a bit. I had PMDD for 2 weeks and had 3 breakdowns. Not a good thing when a person is a mother let alone a daycare provider. Fortunately I was able to stop the meds immediately and within 4 days they were out of my system. It was like night and day. After some damage control and my kids understand that this was not actually "Mom" but some nasty evil side effect of synthetic hormones...Now though, my pain and symptoms are back with a vengeance. My next step is a hysterectomy and I'm only 32. It's not a good step so early in life as I will in all likelihood have a host of other issues instead.

This is really my motivation to get on track, FOR REAL! I know if I lose a substantial amount of weight I will reduce my pain and inflammation. I absolutely can not eat dairy, refined sugars and alcohol which is a huge obstacle for an over eater and someone whose favourite foods are cheese and red wine. Yes wine is a food group in my house lol I also live on the bench and my closest friends all work at wineries so it requires a huge lifestyle change to prevent others from bringing it into my house too :-/

I have supplements to treat the endo which don't come with nasty side effects but they only work if I am consistent so it brings me back to how important it is that I start to value myself much more than I do.

I know as soon as I am out of the house 5 days a week I am going to regret the ability to have an hour or two each afternoon at naptime to take some steps to take care of me and exercise. 24 weeks and counting...

Anyone else taking steps to live a healthier lifestyle?