And so the cycle goes...Health and Wellbeing

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Do you have a friend who would be willing to get together with you once a week or so and either just talk, or excercise together, or something like that. Support is one of the biggest things that we forget. When we try to handle everything ourselves it can feel overwhelming. If you had a buddy system going, it could help a lot.

I do have a friend who is a workout nut. I tend to push them away when they try to help. I think I have a fear of the pain and the failure. Breaking those habits are tough...along with the fact that my husband is also an overeater so we are like addicts who get together and reinforce negative behaviours in each other and sabotage. It isn't intentional and we have the same goals. When we are on track we really help each other, but the minute one of us is having a tough time, we tend to crack together.

We have set some ground rules which do help. I can not support him when it comes to wanting anything. He can not come to me and complain about being hungry, or wanting a beer. I can not take that on and he understands so he doesn't anymore. I will crack almost certainly. I have been so committed before and this has happened. He also doesn't follow healthy eating unless I have prepped it. That is why we changed meal prep so we have equal responsibility for prepping meals for the family as a whole, not just me making food for everyone except myself because when it comes to me I can not bare to cook another thing.

We are also going to an Overeaters anon support group starting next week. Hopefully we can go as a couple but also work as individuals to work through things and reach our goals.

It is hard to talk about any psychological issues with friends because they can not comprehend that having PTSD is way more complicated than just choosing to change and I just can not hear that anymore. They mean well but it is more problematic than helpful. People think war veterans when in reality the majority of PTSD sufferers are silent and have not been to war. People have no time for it outside of this stereotype and so it makes support hard to come by. I have come so far, I am a completely different person than I was in 2010, I just really wish the anxiety surrounding my kids would just stop. I manage it most of the time, but sometimes I have to catch myself and pull myself back from praying for the day they are adults lol teenage years are definitely a feeder for parental anxiety for anyone haha I have a second job which really helps because I am busy. Also I'll be going to school only 2 full days a week to get my degree and will still be at home to be connected to my kids and be available to them when they need me the rest of the time, even if the terms of that changes due to them being teens now.