Originally Posted by
bright sparks
This doesn't work for me unfortunately. If I keep a journal I become obsessed. If I obsess over food, my problem becomes worse. I do not keep certain things in the house, cookies, chips, wine, chocolate, cheese. I bake everything for my daycare kids and put bananas in everything as as I HATE banana bread that even if I forget myself for a moment and mindlessly take a bite, I am repulsed by the taste and don't even swallow it...yuk!
My biggest issues are because I cook such good meals for my dc kids, and then for my own kids, and my husband is rarely home for dinner, that for me I end up getting take out, drive thru, eat to late, or dont eat at all. I really should practice what I preach when it comes to nutrition as I know an incredible amount about it and think it is very important.
I also hate exercise because it hurts. I can't stay on a treadmill for more than 20minutes as I am bored out of my skull. I can only manage that long because I have a tv in front of me. I can't run as I have horrific shin splints so I walk at about 3-31/2 mph on a steep incline. I have Jillian micheals body revolution which is 30 minute workouts of HIIT. This is great as long as I stick to it but initially it's not uncommon for my to end up fighting tears as it's just so painful. As soon as I don't do it for a day or two, I just procrastinate and make a million excuses up not to do it. It's more of a psychological issue I think.
Today I am clearing space in my basement to put the exercise mats back out to start again. I waste so much of my life obsessing over how I want to lose weight. I have about 80-100 to lose and no longer weigh myself as it is more important to focus on feeling healthy not the number or the reflection in the mirror. I feel so much better when I cut out alcohol, dairy and refined sugars. I have endometriosis so suffer with chronic pain when my inflammation is worsened which Is aggravated by those foods. The pain can be debilitating.
I am trying to take baby steps. I just completed a pledge to not drink alcohol for thirty days. I don't have a drinking problem lol but it was one thing that I could concentrate on which wouldn't put to much pressure on me. I tend to have a glass of wine, or a few when I've had a hard day, it's how i destress but I've stayed away from doing that now, even after my poopy carpet incident the other day. ;) I noticed a huge difference and after enjoying wine with my friend last night I am feeling the negatives now and feel that maybe what's best is total elimination of alcohol as a result :( Or at least until my overall health has improved lots and maybe I will be able to tolerate it better. I love wine and really appreciate good wines so it sucks.
I read a great quote on Instagram yesterday...
"Symptoms are not Enemies to be Destroyed, but Sacred Messengers who encourage us to Take Better Care of Ourselves!"